Yeah... I'm back~!

The operation on my back is a success... Well, I guess and hope it is.. Luckily, I don't need to donate my own blood.. Whew...


I still remember that day when I was about to push in to the surgery room, I saw my family was so worried and anxious... Papa is the most worried and nervous one... Well, as for me.. I thought I'm gonna cried or something but I was like so calm.. don't even felt scared, panicking or nervous at all... (must be the psychiatrist's medicine working!!) Thank goodness.. (usually I not this calm at all..)

I still remember the moment they put the oxygen mask on my face.. I was like waiting to fall asleep.. soon, I only remember I told them, I felt breathless then......zzzzzzzzz off to dreamland...

5 hours later, I came out of the surgery room.. I was awake and kinda drowsy.. They moved me to Highly dependency unit for a day, before moving me to my bed..

The doctor told my parents I was lucky, didn't bleed a lot during the surgery.. (heng arh...)

The pain on my back is not what I expect it would be.. I thought I'll would be in excruciating pain!!! Lucky not as painful as I though.. perhaps it the morphine that is doing the work.. (dunno how many time I press the button..) Only when the nurses turns and moves me then I felt painful otherwise.. Still bearable... But somehow, I guess I was allergic to morphine.. That very night my lips became very dried and cracked.. then the next day... my lips turn into 2 huge sausages.. Hahahhah.. I was kinda shock when I saw my lips so swollen... I look so hilarious.

I wasn't able to sleep after I came out of the surgery room for 2 whole days.. too noisy.. I heard, ecg monitor loud beeping sound, very loud snoring sound, water flowing sound, closing cabinet sound.. patients in agony sound.. and many more... it's kinda torturing for me.. Mom came to accompany me the on second day.. (They when home during the first day..) She too wasn't able to sleep either.. In the end.. The next day, we can't take it anymore.. so my mom request to discharge me from hospital.. Me too can no longer take it..

I was so worried the doctor wouldn't approved to discharge me.. because is only the second day of the surgery.. (actually I must stay for a few more days before they discharge me... ) Later, around afternoon, after poor attitude physiotherapist checked to see if I was able to walk and get out of the bed and taking some x-ray... finally after the long awaited moment.. I was able to go home~! Yeah!!!

I already forgotten that day was the first day of Chinese Lunar New Year.. I was so glad I was home.. When my parents gave me Ang Bao.. I cried.. (everyone's eyes is reddish..) Dunno, I just cried.. I guess I was very happy coming home safely..



During my stay in the hospital I saw most of the patients around me are in their old age.. (I'm perhaps the youngest in that room..), either in poor health or fell down injuring themselves and have a hard time getting themselves up.. most of them couldn't walk..

When I saw them suffering in pain.. I felt so sad.. I told my parents they must stay healthy and don't fall down.. (then I cried again..) Yeah.. Honestly, I'm scared..

My grandmama also fell down.. and happened to injured herself. (so many years ago...) since then she have to sit in a wheelchair.. She can't move around very much anymore.. Ever since then, she have to stay in her room, everyday looking out of the window.. mom have to take care of her daily routine, bathing, eating and so on.. I was only in primary 5 then... I never forget how she took care of grandmama even until now.


All I know is that, I wishes my parents will stay in good health..



Okay.... have to end my long meaningless entry here....


Still need more time to recover. Finally the nightmare is half over.. Now hoping it will recover.. after all, nerve is on my right leg have been damage for many years..

I just hope the nerve will heal more or less..